Withdrawing From Life
"I've observed some participants withdrawing from their life and those around them, those who lovingly supported them. This is part of a natural cycle. When this happens it is essential to reach out to your peers.
Whenever anyone withdraws, it is often a self-destructive act. When they take themselves out they take others down with them. I've seen it happen many times. Just as someone is about to push through to the next level, the fear of everything becoming wonderful and easy takes them out. We can only take so much feeling good, it takes time to wean ourselves off the suffering.
When you find yourself feeling superior to others, you are about to take yourself out. When you think you know it all, you are about to take yourself out. There is a great distinction between self-confidence and egotism. When you compare yourself to others, you are about to take yourself out. How can you compare yourself to another when there is no one quite like you."
I spent much of my life doing this. Withdrawing and hiding from life. Trying to heal and fix myself instead of living and being out in the world. Hiding behind my computer rather than being in public. Eating less and less. It was a drive back into the ground. You will find life is expansive and with breath - do the things that move in that direction, even if they are scary or uncomfortable - and let yourself FEEL alive, rather than being on life support.